Today I prayed a very specific prayer.

Psalm 34:18 says The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
I’ve thought many times over how our future children need to trust in the Lord; trust in Jesus and depend on him. Even if he does not allow us to become a family, he can still redeem their lives. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
They will see quickly our faith and the impact it has on our lives. What they don’t have access to is the power Holy Spirit within them. To my knowledge, my girls are not yet saved. While this has eternal horrific consequences, it also has devastating implications here and now. They do not possess the Holy Spirit. They are therefore at a significant disadvantage while they walk this journey of family-hood. Their vision may be foggy, their hearing deadened, the hearts hardens to the joy and comfort that is waiting for them. They know us and trust us and believe us, but we only have so much authority, (very little authority actually) to promise them a future; redemption of their futures will come through us, only as God allows. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

Yet true redemption is found in him, not in human parents, adopted or biological.

So I pray today and everyday here on our, that our children will be sensitive to the Comforter and Advocate who is close to them. I pray that he may dwell in the atmosphere around them, and guide their hearts and minds in all things. I pray that he will be near to the broken-hearted and that my broken-hearted may feel that nearness. That he might “save those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18b